reality sets in.

Now that I am all moved in, I finally feel like a free person.
However, reality is setting in that I don't have my mother here to cook me food, or to do the laundry.

it is all up to me!


Just like any freshman, I am trying to find out, where I belong and who I should be hanging around. It is so nerv-racking knowing that I don't have my best friend here to be with.

To my lovely family:


:{


I miss you so much D:

But soon I shall be home!

no more days i'm at college!

TOday was my first day at college,
and it was

SUPER AWESOME :D

below are pictures :]






Waking up at 6 AM to work out with Lauren (my roommate)
then more orentation AL DAY :]


super.

day 32. apology

The past couple days I haven’t been in the mood to write a blog.
Tonight is no difference.
Sorry.

day 31

good day :]



ish.


no car for college.


but i went shopping.

the end.


p.s

sorry i haven't been posting anything good.
i've been too busy to think about anything.

Love,
Me :D

Day 30. Switching Things Up.

HAI!
So this is Becca's best friend Halle :)
and i'm really kool and hacked her blogg!
be jealous d00d!

sooooo i'm quite sad because this lovely lady that i have known for 6 almost 7 years is leaving me in 4 days...
like... whhaattt.
she has always been 5 minutes away from me...
><

so all i know is that LA is gunna become my second home, and that's better than nothing :)

But i just wanna say how much i love you becca.
you're amazing.
i have learned so much from you.
you have always been there for me.
your love is everlasting.
your my best friend.
thank you.

i shall be thinking of you everyday
:)




I LOVE YOU!!

you're the best :)
<3

DAy 29. Regret

“Don’t regret anything because at one time it made you happy.”

You see…I usually fallow that…

But tonight is full of it.

See there was this guy in high school…
I liked him a lot…but I didn’t have the guts to tell him.
But tonight, for some reason…we talked, and he said he liked me.
And I was like

FAIL!
D:


It was like a big face palm..

Hah.

Disneyland tomorrow! Super excitedddd :]



And then its packing time


It’s weird that I’m leaving San Diego in 5 days…
It doesn’t feel like it at all >.<

D:
Well goodnight!
Have to get ready to see mickey and Minnie tomorrow
:D
<3

Day 28. Nothing

No blog tonight.

Nothing good to talk about

butttt


Here is a LOLCat :]

Day 27

To create the life of your dreams, the time has come for you to love You. Focus on Your joy. Do all the things that make You feel good. Love You, inside and out. Everything will change in your life, when you change the inside of you. Allow the Universe to give you every good thing you deserve.
^
^
^
i saw this on some girl's facebook as her status...and i thought that was so beautiful.

i belive that before you can love anyone, you have to loev yourself.


When given an assignment from school 3/4 weeks before school acutally starts...
i have one piece of advice.

DO NOT PROCRASTINATE.

out of 19 chapters, i read about 5 untill today.

and boy.

that was annoying.


6 days before i move, and i'm so excited.

<3

Me

day 26: Almost time

A week fom tomorrow I will be moving in to AJU.
And BOY am I happy.

The end.

Day 25 Taller than me

OHHHH HURROW ^.^





Today was the first time I saw my brother since he left for camp,
And not only was he SUPER skinny..
He is now officially taller than me!

D:

My life is coming to an end!

I’m so short :[ :[ :[

Today was such a long drive, but I’m happy to be home and sleeping in my bed..

Well at least for the next 9 days!

I’m so excited to move out…however I am nervous.

What if nothing goes the way that I planned it?

Well nothing goes the way you plan it anyways…

Well, I should only think about the positive things…

Likeeeeee how awesome my roomie is,
how amazing the college is,
and how fortunate I am to have the opportunity to go to an amazing school like AJU :]


I think thats about it for tonight...i wish i had something sort of interersting to talk about....
but nothing comes to mind.

so night night <3


Love Always,

Day 24. coming home

Today I spent the day with my cousins Derek and Heather, and it was so much fun! We took a nice walk and saw a beautiful view of San Fran, then went to dinner at this amazing Mexican place!
Even though I really needed a vacation, I am ready to come home. I miss sleeping in my bed, and I miss my puppies D:

It is always nice to take a vacation, getting away from all the unnecessary people that waste your time.

Anywhoooooo…I move into college in 10 days. And I am SO excited.
I have the roommate I want, and we are going to have a BLAST!

Not to much to say tonight, hopefully something else will happen tomorrow
Nighty Night :]


Love,

Day 23: A little late

Yes, i know its already 3:15 AM, but i didn't post a blog tonight.
I had a pretty rough day.


Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go. ~Author Unknown


Finding out someone you care about cheated on you...hurts.

(yes mom and did this is what happened, but i'm fine)

I've done nothing in the world to deserve the way he treated me. I deserve better.

He didn't even have to tell me. its funny he wasn't ashamed to put it on facebook either.

facebook is lame.


I am coming home tomorrow, and i am so happy. I'm glad i got to get away from everything/everyone for a week, however it is time to return home.

Besides, i'm out of the house in about 10 days anyways :D

Goodnight.

I promise tomorrrow's blog will be moer eventful :D

Day 22: Bull Shit

Today I stood in line for about 4 hours, just to get a wristband.

I’ve stated debating if I actually want to try out for this.

I’m so over the whole

“I don’t know why all these fake bitches are here…I”M the next American idol!”


COME ON! How cocky can you get?!?!?!?!!

Any ways, I’ve had a lot of things on my mind lately.
I don’t know what exactly.
I’ve had streaks of feeling alone, depressed. And then I have streaks of feeling happy and joyful.
I’ve had a lot of B.S go in and out of my life. B.S boyfriends, friends and experiences.
I just want something that will last. A best friend, someone to share my love with, and experiences that will last a lifetime.
That is why I’m excited to move to LA in 2 weeks. Yes, LA. But still, it is the college of my dreams…I couldn’t think of a better place that I’d want to go!


Any ways, I have to read this book for school called ,” the impossible will take a while : a citizen’s guide to hope in a time of fear”

Wtf.
Goodnight :]
<3

Day 21. American Idol

Today was a looooooooooong day.

I left San Diego at 11:00 am when I was planning to leave around 9:00 am

The 7 hour drive turned into an 8 hour one; however it was so much fun

The whole ride was spent singing songs along with Michael constantly petting my hair! XD


I am sitting on the couch at my cousins right now, with her brand new baby twins =]

So cute.

Sean and Ethan!




Dad, if you are watching this. Erin say’s that you are welcome. Hanging with these twins for 4 nights is enough birth control for ever =]

Tomorrow is American Idol check in, and I’m pretty amped!

I’m going to sing Hallelujah by Jeff Buckley ;]
So excited.

Well night time!

Lilah Tov!!!!

Day 20. Breath of fresh air

Today was a good day.
^thats for you Seth!


I went to Balboa Park with a friend from Israel

And we pretty much walked around the WHOLE park:]

It was a beautiful day, and it felt nice just to get out.
I had alot of things on my mind from last night, but it was so nice just going out and forgetting about the problems.

it was a nice breath of fresh air

We went into the house of Israel, Pakistan (which was actually a tent not a house), China and Germany

Then we went into the museum of photography.
Awesome stuff…the photography was beautiful.

:]


Well, I am off to begin my journey to san Francisco in the morning, and I cannot wait to begin!

7 hour drive with my friend Michael, we got muffins and everything!


Then here we come AMERICAN IDOL :]


Yepp. You heard that correctly.

I’m trying out for American Idol!

Keep your fingers crossed for me!


Talk to ya’ll on the flipside!

Day 19. When the past catches up to you

Tonight was kind of a rough night.

I began packing for college,

and I ran into a couple things…

that I wish I didn’t.

In 7th and 8th grade,
I did not have that many friends.
I was picked on,
and I was not well liked.
People wrote me notes
which were not the nicest things.

I’ve moved on,
however,
running into those letters tonight made me realize how much stronger I’ve become.

“Sticks and stones can break my bones, but words can never hurt me”

Right now,
I am happy and content with my life.
I have people in my life that I care about,
a college that I fell in love with,
and a future I am looking forward to.
There is nothing anyone can do or say to change that.


the end

Day 18 Trust

Today was the last day of camp, and I was soo sad to see them go D: they were like my little children…but on the flip side of that…I get to sleep in now, and I have about 2 weeks left of summer!!

I’ve been having long conversations with a former graduate of the same high school as me,
and I have realized how I’m not alone on a lot of things.

That feeling that I’m going to be alone forever…the fear of the future: he has that too.


There are not that many people i trust in this world..

i have problems trusting people,
mainly becuase all the people i have trusted,
Because they broke that trust...

But there is one person that makes me comfortable trusting, and makes me not be afraid of the future. (You know who you are)
And I thank you for that. You’ve helped me for the past 3 years (seems longer than that) feel better about myself and make me feel oh so very special. You are one of the few people I trust in the crazy place we call earth. I am so grateful to have someone like you in my life…I can’t wait to see you in December. It’s going to be awesome:]


<3


Anywhoooo :]

San Francisco on Monday! So excited:]


I’ve been starting these shakes with my parents…and they are like protein shakes, which suppress your appetite for a period of time….and its so cool! I’m like never hungry!

Hopefully it will help me loose weight!!!

Well, that is all for tonight.

have to let someone go to sleep :] ahha.
Goodnight <3

Technically Day 17!

**I KNOW I MISSED A DAY….whoops….***

It’s complicated, it always is. That’s just the way it goes. Feels like I’ve waited so long for this, I wonder if it shows…and underwater now I can’t breathe…it never felt so good. Because I can feel it coming over me, I wouldn’t stop it if I could. When love takes over…

Tonight is just another one of those nights…

So I’m not going to write a lot to night.

But yah….
I guess that’s it.


Here is a nice pictuer

Day 17. Blah

First of all, I know none of my campers are going to read this, but I am
SO PROUD OF YOU GUYS!
You all rocked it tonight!

:]

Today was an “ish” day….

I feel so alone lately..

Every day (until this Friday…cause it’s the last day of work!!!)

-I wake up at 7:30

-Go to work until 4

-come home

-MSN date

-dinner

-sleep

I just feel like my life is so unproductive

Hopefully that will all change when I move!

MY NEW COMPUTER CAME IN THE MAIL TODAY :}

It’s the HP DM4:]

So adorable!!!!!


But on to the more serious stuff…

:/

I duno.

Just one of those nights?


I have to wake up early…

So I’m going to end this blog

With a LOL cat :]


Night :]

Day 16.Special day

Happy Wednesday!


Lately I’ve been listening to a lot of musicals...

I just finished listening to Wicked.

“I’ve heard it said…that people come into our lives, for a reason
Bringing something we must learn, and we are led to those
Who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Now I don’t know if I believe that’s true
But I know I’m who I am today because I knew you.”

Such a beautiful song…



“Just for this moment
As long as your mine
I’ve lost all resistance
And crossed the boarderline
And if it turns our
Its over to fast,
I’ll make every last moment last
As long as your mine”

You know who this is too <3


Today was an extra special day today..


A relationship with a friend was re-kindled..

And a person who means a lot to me said something great :]

It just come to show, that when times are down….and you are sad...

Don’t be too sad…because it always comes back up.

As I said in yesterday’s blog…

“It will get better in the end, and if it doesn’t get better…than it isn’t the end”